Friday, January 15, 2010

One More Time

Life was good. Ok, life IS still good, just not what I planned. Of course, I am learning that my plans are silly and insignificant and rarely matter. It was last Thursday when the headaches started to become noticeable. I had to lay down at the end of a long day, I was having trouble concentrating on patients, and I just felt yucky. Could it all be in my head? Maybe. At least that is what I was hoping. Well, fast forward to today. Here I am, back in LA getting ready for another myelogram.

Long story short, they are back. I had a full spine MRI yesterday which showed some leakage at the old site. The surgeon said it could be new or it could be post op from my previous surgery. The only way to find out is a myelogram. Luckily, they are going to sedate me this time. Whew! He said that if the myelogram is abnormal, then I get to have surgery again. If it is normal, then maybe another blood patch. So, I find myself in a strange situation.....hoping for an abnormal myelogram and surgery. At least if it is not normal, then he can find the exact spot and fix it. If it is normal, then what? Non specific blood patches and unanswered questions. Can't go there now....not going to.

Tommie is here with me and Mere is still in LR with the girls. We are going one step at a time right now. I will post more as I know it.


Sonya said...

OMG Jess! I hope they find out what's wrong and can fix it for you!

I'm sorry you have to be away from your family again.

Take care and stay strong!

Raine said...

Hopefully they will get it totally fixed this time. Thinking and praying for a full recovery.

K J and the kids said...

How in the hell did this happen. I am so sorry Jess.
Praying for an answer. Praying for a solution.
Big hugs to you !

rae said...

damnit. damnit. damnit.

keep me posted.

tallgirl said...

Wow! What a real let down. I am so sorry. I am sending good vibes your way.

amy said...

WOW.... no words! I just don't understand how this happened/happens in general. Hoping for answers for you and sending lots of love and support in the meantime...

Anonymous said...

Jess, I met you and yours only recently. Nonetheless and Mere and the wee 'uns have been in my thoughts lately.

much affection,
Nita (we rocked out at Brandi and Cassie's)