Thursday, March 20, 2008


Pop quiz: It's 3 am in the morning and raining (no, pouring) outside. You wake up and notice a small rash on both of your arms. It doesn't bother you. No itching, no pain. You are not having trouble breathing. You feel fine, but you have a rash. What do you do next?

A. Go back to sleep, if the rash is still there in the morning then call your doctor
B. Take a Benadryll and go back to sleep
C. Put some lotion or some other something on it and go back to sleep
D. Go to your local emergency room

You guessed it! The otherwise healthy, 34 year old woman got out of bed at 3am and braved flash floods to come to the ER. I really wanted to take her outside and read her the sign above the building; E-M-E-R-G-E-N-C-Y R-O-O-M. In case your wondering, the definition of emergency is, " 1. A serious situation or occurrence that happens unexpectedly and demands immediate action. 2. A condition of urgent need for action or assistance: a state of emergency"

Instead I calmly explained to this otherwise apparently intelligent women that there is nothing that can be done for a nonspecific rash. I sent her home and told her to take Benadryll as needed. Another life saved......whoah! That was a close one.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

If I Can Just Get Through This Week

Please let it be Saturday, please let it be Saturday, please let it be Saturday. Ahhh, Saturday we get on a plane and go to Boston to see my inlaws. Saturday marks the beginning of 9 days without work....9 days!!!! I'm going to sleep with my children and wife every night for 10 nights in a row. It must be a dream. I cannot wait. Now, if I can just not get sick between now and then.

Of course, I am also super excited to meet my new neice Kylie. She is so stinking cute and looks just like Layne (I think). I also know it will be a little difficult because I want a baby so bad right now. I was hoping to be pregnant this trip. At least I can enjoy some pinot with my SIL.

Sydney can't wait to be with her cousin, Paige (Paige-e-girl). They always have so much fun together. I always leave wishing that Syd could be closer to Paige on a regular basis. But, since we aren't moving to New England and my BIL has a business in New England the girls will always have to foster a long distance relationship.

Did I mention that I get 9 days off???? Holy Shit....AWESOME. I can't wait. But I can wait to travel w/ it wrong to sedate children for parental comfort?

Saturday, March 15, 2008

What a year!

Syd and I were taking a bath today and she said, "so Mommy, how was your work yesterday?" That seems to be the theme of this year. Work, work, and more work. This week alone I have done 2 24 hr shifts, 2 12 hr shifts, and have been in the clinic the rest of the time. I'm thinking that sleep is really not optional. I am not 20 anymore, that is FOR SURE. I'm not sure why I have been working SOOO much. The money is great but now that we aren't doing IVF there is not so much urgency. I miss my family, I miss my sleep, I miss my life. It is time to cut back. After this week I am going to slow down on the ER work. Seriously, I'm starting to look like a ghost. I am going to spend time with my girls and start running again and quit eating so many damn Pringles (I think they put crack in them)! Most importantly, I am going to take some time to process the idea that I might not ever carry a baby. Sometimes you just can't barrel through life. You can't just put things away in little compartments and pretend it is not there anymore. As a good friend of mine put it, "your well is dry." She is is definately time to get the hose.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Because I can

It all started with a simple conversation. Me, "maybe I should start blogging." Mere, "I'll set it up!" Fast foward to today when she calls me at work to tell me that I have a blog. So I guess I should write something. I can't think of anything to I'll get back to you.