Saturday, March 15, 2008
What a year!
Syd and I were taking a bath today and she said, "so Mommy, how was your work yesterday?" That seems to be the theme of this year. Work, work, and more work. This week alone I have done 2 24 hr shifts, 2 12 hr shifts, and have been in the clinic the rest of the time. I'm thinking that sleep is really not optional. I am not 20 anymore, that is FOR SURE. I'm not sure why I have been working SOOO much. The money is great but now that we aren't doing IVF there is not so much urgency. I miss my family, I miss my sleep, I miss my life. It is time to cut back. After this week I am going to slow down on the ER work. Seriously, I'm starting to look like a ghost. I am going to spend time with my girls and start running again and quit eating so many damn Pringles (I think they put crack in them)! Most importantly, I am going to take some time to process the idea that I might not ever carry a baby. Sometimes you just can't barrel through life. You can't just put things away in little compartments and pretend it is not there anymore. As a good friend of mine put it, "your well is dry." She is right....it is definately time to get the hose.